To say this post has been a long time coming would be a total understatement. Life has been totally crazy, with Justin working at an internship every single weekend and working his normal job during the week. And you know, me being pregnant and Jonah becoming more and more of a little boy who wants to play, learn and explore. To cap it all off, we also had a month of renovations being done in our main bathroom that literally finished the same day I reached 37 weeks in my pregnancy. If they hadn’t been totally necessary repairs, we would’ve waited for a more convenient time, but plumbing leaks in older homes are no joke, guys.
So much has happened, and so much is still yet to come, I can barely wrap my mind around it. Baby 2 is due in 10 days! It feels like I’ve been pregnant FOREVER, and at this point, I can’t tell you how ready I am for this sweet little one to make his or her debut earthside. Slowly but surely, everything on the to-do list is getting checked off. The nursery is complete. The car seats are installed. We have a functional bathroom. Jonah’s room has been rearranged to include all his toys, and my office has taken a new place in the back of the house with the dogs. It looks cute, but man, it smells like dog back there. Side note, if I can interest anyone in a smelly dog or in grooming my dogs…
But before baby arrives, Justin graduates from UNF on Friday! Seriously, this has been such a long journey. He has literally been in classes part-time since a year or so after we got married, and this December is our 10-year anniversary. You do the math. I am so proud of him for sticking to his goal and getting his bachelor’s degree. It’s definitely been a team effort, but I am so happy to have this time in our lives almost officially past us.
Somewhere along the way of doing life every day, I definitely realized that this time of our lives while our children are so young and need so much of us, it only made sense to say no to a lot of other things. Originally, we were just taking off 2016 from weddings, and I’m seriously so glad we made that choice. There is absolutely no way we could have gotten through the past four months of Justin working literally every single day AND done weddings. Fortunately, it’s been a really healthy and uneventful pregnancy for me this time around with only a few of the usual symptoms, but guys, I am tired. And Justin is too. We’ve both been going pretty nonstop, and have really only had the past two weekends of actually spending time together as a family.
I was telling a good friend just yesterday that it’s been a real struggle trying to keep up with everything that needs to be done. Anxiety is something I’ve had to work through often, and while I think it’s important to have a positive attitude, it’s almost just as important to be real, especially in a world with everyone posting happy Instagram and Facebook photos that often make us feel like we must be doing something wrong. All of our close friends in the industry know that we’ve taken a step back from weddings, and I just want to express that taking a step away from something that stands between us and our time with our growing family is a good thing. There is so much freedom in choosing who you are going to spend your time with and making them a priority. This time in our lives just wasn’t meant to be spent photoshopping the ever-present double chin that we ALL have from time to time. Seriously, guys. If I have to come to terms with it, so do you. 😉
So yeah, that’s my clever way of telling you all that we aren’t doing weddings anymore. Period. It’s just too much trying to balance everything, and in the words of George Bailey from “It’s a Wonderful Life…”
“I want to live, Clarence!”
I’m still planning on doing smaller sessions after baby is no longer a newbie, but honestly, we’re just going to take it one day at a time. I’m not going to pretend to know what the future holds and give you my five-year plan, because I don’t even know my five-day plan. I’m not even sure what I’m making for dinner tonight. I’m just grateful that God has blessed us with a great job for Justin and ALMOST two little people to love and take care of. And that’s my focus right now.